Good morning to u..
1) I woke up searching for my phone looking for a msg from u-frustrated nothing.. What do I expect, like you said I shoudn't hope too much..After all, it's a routine now, to wake up and to see the blank screen at the phone without a msg.. I am going to appreciate that routine now coz starting from now on I have to wake up, staring at a blank screen without a msg notification and trying to imagine that u r sleeping beside me and I will hug u back to continue my deep sleep back..Sounds impossible but that is the thing that I always do whenever I accidentally wake up in the middle of the night. Hence, to wake up from my deep sleep and looking at the phone is the best moment I've ever felt even though it's nothing now.. (^_^)
2) Searching for my laptop is my second routine..In fact rushing to charge it back coz most of the time I would sleep without shutting down the lappy.. Biarkan laptop tu sampai mati sendri..Bukan apa syg nak tutup y!m..Manalah tau kan ada org nak tegur..tapi like u said " don't expect too much coz it will only break ur heart". It's ok.. After all my heart has been broken since the beginning.. Biarlah terus remuk asalkan dapat tengok org tu online n tak bertegur sape pun takpelah.. At least I still know that he is still there even though tak dapat tau dah condition dia macam mana. Tapi I always hope that u will always be fine there and will always pray for ur happiness (^_^)
3) Whenever, I have the difficulty to find a colour to be worn by me to work, I would ask him to choose for me..However it is no longer can be done now. My daily routine is I have to choose it by myself now. Sometimes when I have the difficulty to make a choice I would close my eyes and just picked whatever colour that my hand had picked up for me to be worn that day. Again hanya mampu (^_^) sebab masih panjang masa untuk routine yg sama berulang ntah sampai bila..
4) Whenever, I feel sad, depressed, tension, bored and sick, I would tell those things to somebody that I used to call 'b'. Tapi semuanya dah tak dapat skank..Skank hanya mampu meluahkan di sini.. Di rumah usang yg suram.. Tapi takpelah .. "Wahai rumah, janganlah risau ye..Akan ku hiasi dirimu cantik2, akan ku jadikan kamu yg terindah kerana kamulah tempat aku meluahkan skrang setelah kehilangan sesuatu yg berharga.. Maaf andai kata aku hanya buat kamu sebagai tempat meluahkan isi hati, tapi aku mahu kamu tahu tanpa luahan itu, aku mungkin takkan dapat menjenguk kamu lagi.. Jadi kamu harus (^_^) ye.. Tapi jangan risau akan ku pastikan kamu cantik, ceria dan bahgia mendengar luahan hati aku kerana aku akan pastikan luahan aku yg hanya positif2 semuanya wahai rumah.. Terima kasih kerana sudi menemani aku..
To be continued as I need to find a new colour for my lovely house now..
Written by hD yang bahgia bersama rumahnya di hari ulangtahun kejadian perkenalannya dengan seseorang yg teristimewa...
15/09/2011 22.00 pm
