My dearie house

Hari ni nak kasi kamu wall bintang2..Ala2 futuristic gtu..hehhee..semoga kamu rasa bahgia disinari bintang2 yang berkerlipan ye...Sempena tema baru rumah kita, sudilah kamu mendengar lirik lagu yg berkaitan bintang ini ye:

Bintang Di Langit

Kerlip Engkau Di Sana

Memberi Cahayanya Di Setiap Insan

Malam Yang Dingin

Kuharap Engkau Datang

Memberi Kerinduan Di Sela Mimpi - Mimpinya

Melangkah Sendiri Di Tengah Gelap Malam

Hanya Untuk Mencuri Jatuh Sinaran

Tak Terasa Sang Waktu

Melewati Hidupnya

Tanda Pagi Menjelang

Mengganti Malam

Oh Bintang Tetaplah Pastikan Cahyanya

Sinari Langkahku Setiap Saat

Bintang Pun Tersenyum Dengarkan Pintaku

Berikan Kecupan Di Sudut Tidurnya

Wahai rumah andai kamu tidak suka ngan wall baru ni, jgn risau..Nanti akan ditukar lagi baju kamu mengikut moodku ye..so senyum ye (^_^)

berdua bersatu..

Kenapa cinta kita
Selalu saja diduga
Bagai ada tak merestu
Kita berdua bersatu

Atau mungkin kau dan aku
Ditakdir untuk berpisah
Walaupun melawan arus
Kita berdua bersatu

Seringkaliku mendengar
Patah tumbuh hilang berganti
Tetapiku tidak mahu
Cinta selain darimu

Jika denganmu salah
Kutak mahu yang benar
Jika denganmu rebah biarlah kutercalar
Walau dilanda badai
Kusanggup kerna ku mampu
Kita berdua bersatu

Jika denganmu kabur
Kutak mahu yang jelas
Jika denganmu hanyut
Biarlah aku lemas
Walau dilanda ribut
Kusanggup kerna kumampu
Kita berdua bersatu


- Berdua bersatu by forteen -

My daily routine

Good morning to u..

1) I woke up searching for my phone looking for a msg from u-frustrated nothing.. What do I expect, like you said I shoudn't hope too much..After all, it's a routine now, to wake up and to see the blank screen at the phone without a msg.. I am going to appreciate that routine now coz starting from now on I have to wake up, staring at a blank screen without a msg notification and trying to imagine that u r sleeping beside me and I will hug u back to continue my deep sleep back..Sounds impossible but that is the thing that I always do whenever I accidentally wake up in the middle of the night. Hence, to wake up from my deep sleep and looking at the phone is the best moment I've ever felt even though it's nothing now.. (^_^)

2) Searching for my laptop is my second routine..In fact rushing to charge it back coz most of the time I would sleep without shutting down the lappy.. Biarkan laptop tu sampai mati sendri..Bukan apa syg nak tutup y!m..Manalah tau kan ada org nak tegur..tapi like u said " don't expect too much coz it will only break ur heart". It's ok.. After all my heart has been broken since the beginning.. Biarlah terus remuk asalkan dapat tengok org tu online n tak bertegur sape pun takpelah.. At least I still know that he is still there even though tak dapat tau dah condition dia macam mana. Tapi I always hope that u will always be fine there and will always pray for ur happiness (^_^)


3) Whenever, I have the difficulty to find a colour to be worn by me to work, I would ask him to choose for me..However it is no longer can be done now. My daily routine is I have to choose it by myself now. Sometimes when I have the difficulty to make a choice I would close my eyes and just picked whatever colour that my hand had picked up for me to be worn that day. Again hanya mampu (^_^) sebab masih panjang masa untuk routine yg sama berulang ntah sampai bila..

4) Whenever, I feel sad, depressed, tension, bored and sick, I would tell those things to somebody that I used to call 'b'. Tapi semuanya dah tak dapat skank..Skank hanya mampu meluahkan di sini.. Di rumah usang yg suram.. Tapi takpelah .. "Wahai rumah, janganlah risau ye..Akan ku hiasi dirimu cantik2, akan ku jadikan kamu yg terindah kerana kamulah tempat aku meluahkan skrang setelah kehilangan sesuatu yg berharga.. Maaf andai kata aku hanya buat kamu sebagai tempat meluahkan isi hati, tapi aku mahu kamu tahu tanpa luahan itu, aku mungkin takkan dapat menjenguk kamu lagi.. Jadi kamu harus (^_^) ye.. Tapi jangan risau akan ku pastikan kamu cantik, ceria dan bahgia mendengar luahan hati aku kerana aku akan pastikan luahan aku yg hanya positif2 semuanya wahai rumah.. Terima kasih kerana sudi menemani aku..

To be continued as I need to find a new colour for my lovely house now..
Written by hD yang bahgia bersama rumahnya di hari ulangtahun kejadian perkenalannya dengan seseorang yg teristimewa...

15/09/2011 22.00 pm

15 again !!! -update-

To my lovely hD,

Its 10.44pm @ 15 sept 2011..
Cpt kan masa berlalu? Pejam celik pejam celik.. Dh 5 bulan kita kenal.
Dlm masa 5 bulan, mcm2 kita beljar kan hd?
Mcm2 jugak kita lalui, kta rasa hepy, kita rasa sedih, kita rasa kehlgn sseorng..
Semua nya berlaku dlm masa 5 bulan ni..

U tau tak hd, bila I gi kat umah kita ni..
I rasa sunyi sgt..rasa sedih plaks kekadang..
I rindu time kita hepy dlu..tp I tau time tu xkan berlaku lagiks dlm hidup I skg..
Semua dh hilang..dh jauh pergi dlm hidup I..

" Mungkinkan terputus di tgh jalan
Mungkinkan terlerai tanpa ikatan
Usah ragu dgn takdir..
Mungkin kita kan berbeza haluan
Berakhirnya cerita percintaan..
Segalanya ketentuan tuhan.. "

- cinta terakhir -

Lately ni..I suka layan lagu ni, tak tau naper..
Maybe lirik and melodi dia kena ngn jiwa I yang halus ni kot..
I tak bosan dgr lagu ni hd, bia la I dok ulang byk kali pn..
Bila I dgr lgu ni.. I tringat kt u hd..
I like u,hd..
Maaf, I kata like I rasa word tu je yg boleh ganti kan word love..
Wlupn sbnrya I nk ckp I love u.. I love u so muchh..
Tp u dh larang I utk ckp ayat tu kt u..
I trpksa gnti kan love tu kepda like..

Mcm I pernah ckp sblm ni, I takkan lupa trikh 15 tu dlm hdup I..
Bia la aper pn yg jadik.. I akn ingt smpi bila2..
Wlupn I tau tarikh tu tak mmbwa mkna lagiks pada u..
Tp bia lah, I yg ingat..hnya dgn cra ni jer I boleh ingt kngn kita..
Bia lah I sorg yg trnanti nanti dgn trikh 15 ni dlm hidup I..
Wlupn u pernah ckp yg I dh buang u dlm hidup I skali pn.. I tak kesah..
Sbb I tau hnya I jer yg tau perasaan I ni mcm maner..
Lbih baik kita diam dn tak menafikan aper2 pn..
I rasa cara tu lbih baik..

Take care,hD..
I will always love you..

- Ai -
11.19pm @ 15sept2011

Bukan mudah..

To my lovely hD..

Bukan mudah utk I buat semua tu dlm masa skg.
I msih tak bersdia lagiks..
Mcm I pernah ckp sblum ni, khidupan I bukan mcm khidpan iL yang dlu.
Khidupan I dh lain hD.. Lain sgt..
Maybe u boleh trima dgn apa yg I pernah buat kat u dlu.
Tp u kena ingat hD, I ada sjarah I sndri..
I tau u takkan dpt trima dgn cara hidup I yg mcm ni..
I mnta maaf sgt..
I syg kat you.
I rindu bb I yg manja ngn I dlu..
I rindu semua tu..

- Ai -
13sept2011,
1.42pm

The only thing that I ask you to do

I never blamed you for cheating me. Like u said everything happened for a reason. I could accept the fact already as I believe every human makes mistakes in life. Hence, I have given u the forgiveness yet still feel sad cause you don't want to grab the opportunity to clear up everything. I can accept the fact that iL doesn't exist anymore.  That's y I want to know the new AAF..That's y I need you to clarify everything. I hope with the clarification, I would be glad to accept the new you coz I'm like a cat..where there is a proverb like "curiosity can kill a cat". I feel like I won't be mad anymore, if u r able to tell me the reasons of all the things that happened before. I'm not going to judge or blame you, the only thing that I want is clarification about this matter coz I do love you, love u so much till I feel like someone is stabbing me with a sharp knive when I am no longer able to be like someone who you treated passionately before. I hope you understand me. The only thing that I ask you to do now is answering me without hesitation. That's all dear..

"It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour to like
someone, and a day to love someone- but it takes a lifetime to forget

someone". anonymous

Written by The one who couldn't bear to live without u- hD yang sedang berdukacita..

Maafkan..

hD..
Lately ni, I byk buat hal I sndri.
I bnyk busy kan diri dgn keja2 I..
I rasa cara tu je yg bole I lupa kan skjap ingatan I kat u.
Wlupn sbnrye I tak pernah lupa kan u..
hD..
I nak u tau yg i syg kan u..
sungguh,wlupn iL dh takde skg dlm life u tp perasaan iL ttp ada.
I tau u takkan percaya dgn apa yg I ckp ni,
I tak pernah bohong tentang perasaan I..
hD..
Kalau lah I dapat undur kan balik masa..
I nak sgt u jumpa dgn real person..bkn dgn iL..
Tp I tau perkara tu xkan brlaku sbb I dh buat ssuatu tindakan yg bodoh dlm hidup I..
I syg kan u hD..

Enough.

13sept2011,
11.40am