Nowadays, I feel a little bit lonely. I'm not quite sure how but I know the reasons why I feel that way. I need a companion to accompany my lonely day. It's hard to get one but it is enough to prove that I'll be more than motivated to be accompanied rather than being alone in doing my work.
Why do I need to be alone? I need my strength and I need someone who could care for me, give support and always be beside me all the time.
The worst part is when you discovered that the one who you love most didn't even care to accompany you due to the reason of entertaining someone else or maybe for other reasons. Whatever the reason is, I still feel hopeless for not getting the love and care that I'm looking for.
Talking about that, I admit that we are no longer together. However, by getting his attention back really made my day lately. I felt much appreciated. I felt like the happiness was in the air and the most important thing was to hear the precious word "syg" from him. It really made me stronger, energetic and forgot about the tiredness that I had. I knew, it didn't mean anything from him, but hearing that name-calling is enough to erase all the misery and sadness. Even though we are no longer an item, I am really glad to hear the word “syg” from him.
[Bahgia je bila dgr dia cakap macam kat atas ni walaupun aku tak mengharapkan pape dah dari dia. Hanya mengharapkan perhatian. That's it- and I could no longer get it :( ]
It’s not that I still hope that we are something but I just want to make me to feel happy back, to feel like I am being cared by someone and because of those reasons, all my sorrow and emptiness will fade away. Unfortunately............I need to be alone again..again n againnnn as he is no longer cared for me ;(
