My crumpled heart

I just feel sad Homie..
Every time I feel sad, I feel like my chest is being shredded to pieces.
Why do I need to be lied
Why there must be a secret?
Why there must be a boundary?
Why do you need to keep a distance from me?

I've tried to be calm
I've tried to just ignore
But to know the fact that I'm not the only one,
I feel betrayed
I feel heartbroken
I feel hopeless
I feel useless
It really hurt my feeling and soul
I'm crumpled like a trash

How I wish, I could just varnish
Varnish from you
Varnish from your world
Varnish from my world
To be exact,
I've tried to tarry
But every time I did, I failed.